It breaks my heart to see anger, instead of love, pride, instead of humility, resentment, instead of forgiveness, and criticalness, instead of mercy and grace. I have been so blessed to be at such a wonderful school where I have met such wonderful people who truly love the Lord. But, sadly not all Christians are like the people I meet at school. Though it is everywhere, I especially notice this kind of behavior when I go back to California. It not only breaks my heart, but angers me to be quite honest, to see so many Christians acting like children (and not in a good way). I just don't get why those who have been Christians longer than me still act out of pride. Of course, we all struggle with pride to some extent, but a wise person conceals knowledge (Prov 12:23). There is something to be said about being silent and not always having things your way. What bothers me the most is seeing woman, who have been believers longer than I, gossip and see nothing wrong with it. It's quite obvious that these people are probably not reading God's word consistently, or else how does the problem persist? I struggle with knowing people grow at different rates and in different ways, yet expecting those who have been believers longer than I to be more mature. I don't want to get prideful myself and think or say that I am better than others, but I do think I am more mature in some ways. Which is quite unfortunate, because I don't want to be. I want them to teach me, not to have to teach them (Titus 2:3-4).