This kind of apathy is altogether new to me. It is an apathy that for some strange reason seems to be connected to my feelings for someone else (or lack thereof). It seems that I am much more concerned about making sure my relationship with God is right when there’s a guy I am interested. I care much more about seeking God above all and not putting anything above Him when my heart is set on some man. However, if I am going to remain single, as I am sure I will, I pray God will help me to desire Him above all apart from any crush. I pray I might learn to be passionate about Christ because of who he is, and not what I feel for someone else. I pray my Heavenly Father will give me a hunger for His word and prayer so I might be obedient to Him and please him.