Yet, I know that I cannot sit idly on the fence simply because I am afraid that someone might take offense or think I am a fool. I must decide whether or not I believe God, in His word, or in what everyone else, Christians even, around me are saying. What a struggle this is though! There are so many seemingly and probably decent Christians who have points of view about which I cannot, not ever, agree with. It breaks my heart when this happens and I cry often about it. Who am I to know God’s will and to say their view is wrong, but not just wrong a lie? That God would choose to reveal himself and His truth to me is beyond my understanding and sometimes I feel more burdened than enlightened. (Kind of like right now.) All I can do is get on my knees and wrestle with God over each of these truths he teaches me until my conscience is clear and I know what the Lord’s will is.
Though my conscience may be clear my heart is heavy because I know that to take a stand means some people will judge, some people will hate, and some people might even persecute me. The truth will not always be accepted, even among believers, which is the saddest thing of all. This is my desire, that we, the people of God, might just humble ourselves before the Lord and seek His face wrestling with him until we have received the blessing of his wisdom and understanding; that we might argue with one another less and seek God more. Will we reject Him forever? I pray not. I pray not.