You talk often about a certain boy that you like, jokingly I know. But I wonder about why you think it be the will of God? This of course is presuming you wouldn’t be interested if you thought it wasn’t God’s will. Which I think is the case for most of us most of the time. In my past our Father would show me why someone is not right and then shortly thereafter I would lose my feelings for the person. Of course, there is the possibility that you continue to be interested because the Lord has not showed you why you would not be good together and has not listened to you when you requested the feelings be removed. In this case you might not be able to answer the question. You wouldn’t know if it was or was not the will of God.
I presume however, your case is like the former and not the latter. And so, I am a little concerned about you. It is not a good thing to let your emotions over run you and you know very well how liking this boy messes with your emotions. If you think it be God’s will because you have seen how Godly and mature this man is but do not physically see him or talk to him, I am afraid it is not likely to be our Father’s will. At the very least for right now. When God closes a door it is closed. It is of no use dwelling on whether it be God’s will because the lack of movement/action on his part gives you His [God's] answer. This is a lesson I learned this summer. There was a person I asked God about. And the Lord asked me, “What is he doing?” I said, “Nothing.” Then, God said, “Then why are you concerned?” I only wish I learned this lesson sooner!!!
It is much better to dwell on the things that are above and do your best to discipline your thought life. This is a war, I know! But it is one that must be fought. I know your struggle, I do. Your desire to be married is strong, like mine, I am sure. But we can’t dwell on it. We have to surrender it to God. We have to surrender it as many times as it comes up and tries to overtake us. And as we do this I know we will find the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding. I have already found it! It is so freeing to not dwell on my fleshly desires, but instead my desire to love my God and Savior. Do you believe He is enough for you? Do you trust Him to only give you what is good for you? To not withhold anything good from you? It is not easy to do this, but than again it is not suppose to be. Christ’s sacrifice cost him and so must ours cost us. Though our desire may not seem like much of a sacrifice, the Father is glad to receive it. Give your heart to Jesus and let him take control.