Surrendering to God is not easy. There have been numerous times that I have been on my knees crying out to God to help me trust Him enough to surrender. My greatest fear is getting hurt. Those moments are some of the hardest moments I have had. And yet, in the very next moment there is peace, joy, and strength.
Each time I surrender, what ever it may be to God, there is always joy and peace to follow. And not just joy, but joy abounding, joy that I have never experienced before. And not just joy, but there is peace, peace that is not of this world. And not just joy and peace, but comfort. I learned recently that comfort means with strength and this is the comfort I feel. Surrendering gives me strength, who would have thought?
Each day I must put my trust in God. Trust that he knows what is good for me and does not have plans to harm me. And each day I surrender to his will and put my trust in Him I grow closer to him. Close enough to be able to say, "What a friend I have in Jesus." This surrendering brings me into closer fellowship with God. Before, I could not truly say, "My savior, My closest friend." but now I can. Which makes all the tears and all the pain worth it.
"Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him" Philippians 3:8-9