I am a hypocrite. Among those who know me I am probably considered one of the most religious persons, and yet I doubt God, and have doubted for the last couple of months. I like to talk about power in prayer and affirm that God hears, but I don’t really believe it… at least not right now. There are many things I have prayed for that God hasn’t seemed to answer, but my state of singleness is the one that has caused me to doubt the most. His word says it is better to marry than burn with passion, and yet here I am—burning. And what’s worse? I still can’t shake my feelings for someone who I am most confident does not reciprocate them. I know it’s not about me, but I just can’t understand. I can’t understand why God has left me burning. Why I can’t get rid of these feelings for a man. I can’t understand why he doesn’t seem to answer my prayers for purity, for a desire to praise him more, for my family members to be saved, for my work environment to change, but most of all for my will to change. I am sure I am to blame for my struggle, and yet I don’t know how to change it. I am sure my struggle has to do with my focus, or lack thereof on Christ, and yet my prayer for this seems to also have gone unanswered. O Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!
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What I write AboutMy posts are all about the Christian walk in some way or another. I do my best to make what I post worth reading, thus there are many more things that I write about but do not post. Some of my posts are my reflections on scripture or a quote, other posts are simply my testimony, and others still are letters of encouragement. I hope that you will be encouraged or challenged in your walk with Christ as a result. God Bless you, my friend.
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