I know, I know 3 years is not that long in the grand scheme of things. But 3 years of being single can, at times, feel like an eternity when you desire to have a relationship. Do not get me wrong, I believe that singleness is a gift from God; that's right a gift. However, there are times where it is difficult. ELisabeth Elliot suggests that this desire, is for some of us, our cross to bear. Or at least a part of it; a really big part. Sometimes I feel like Peter, when he says to Jesus, "What about him?" Why does he get to have what I want.?" (that's my paraphrase of John 21:21) The older I get the more and more of my friends and people around me are getting married, and I find myself thinking it will never happen for me and asking God why not me? Why her? Why him? Only to hear him respond to me, "What's it to you if I should will for them to be married? Pick up your cross and follow me." (my paraphrase again of John 21:22) Though it is hard sometimes, oddly enough I think it's has become easier over time. Despite all the people around me getting married, I feel more confident and complete than before being single. Being single is a gift in so many ways. One, I get to spend more time with God and studying His word. What a blessing! I love learning things from Him and have plenty of time to do so. Two, I can do whatever I please. I have much more time to do things that I wouldn't be able to do if I weren't single. Three, drama is almost nonexistent in my life. That's right nonexistent. :) To many times people I know rush into the wrong relationship never seeking God's will only to end up with drama and then heartbreak. Not only do I not have the drama that comes with many ungodly relationships, but I do not have the drama that comes between girls over guys. Really, I don't have drama in relation to guys period. So many girls, create drama which is completely unnecessary over guys because they are using (or trying to use) guys to make them happy. Truth is, only Jesus can really make you happy. And once you realize this life as a single woman becomes much, much easier. Today, I find myself and my desire split 50/50. Half of me wants a relationship and half of me wants to stay single. Never did I think I would come to that point. I was willing to be single; but I did not desire it. I used to think be single was the harder of the two, but now I think being married is the harder. Funny, how God can change us. :)
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What I write AboutMy posts are all about the Christian walk in some way or another. I do my best to make what I post worth reading, thus there are many more things that I write about but do not post. Some of my posts are my reflections on scripture or a quote, other posts are simply my testimony, and others still are letters of encouragement. I hope that you will be encouraged or challenged in your walk with Christ as a result. God Bless you, my friend.
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